as a gay Christian - A journey of truth
"Gay Christian" has been
understood as an oxymoron for many people. But a
holistic view on the humanity of a gay Christian
can dissolved a lot of the misleading stereotypes
and images. The different topics mentioned in
this site may help anyone who is interested to
know what a gay Christian is about.
The hardest thing for gay Christian is discerning
right and wrong. There are simply too much
information out there from both the secular world
and Christian world. These information often
represent two ends of extremes. This makes
understanding almost impossible. The process of
filtering all these information and finding truth
in your life is a way of coming out.
Coming out is a process of learning, self
acceptance, and understanding others. It is a
quest for truth. This quest is emotional and can
be very difficult and time-consuming. It is also
spiritual since it deals with the core of our
understanding and worldview. We would learn the
validity and value of our love and feelings. We
learn to manage and expression ourselves in good
judgment and responsibility. We honor who we are
as a creation of God, finding and appreciating
the beauty within us. We will make mistakes,
suffer pains. What make us different is that God
is part of the process.
Coming out to yourself is similar to the process
of learning about relationship for straight
people - only we often need to rely more on God
to find what we are looking for despite
unbearable loneliness. There are lies to be
broken, misunderstanding to resolve, values to
uphold, and courage to be found.
confusions build up, the human intellect reach
its limit and render useless; it is in our
prayerful connection to God where we can see how
valuable we are, regardless of our sexuality.
When we know our attraction toward others is real
and beautiful, we may find condemnation and
promiscuity like bullets coming from two ends of
a battle field, but God is our shield. In his
love, we will find true love. For what God has
made beautiful will always be His glory.
Be strong and faithful! There may not be answers
for some of the questions we would ask, but there
is always hope in God's grace. Essentially, love,
faith, and hope is more than enough!